| 000001289 (me) | 323 hugs (hug) | comment |
| i feel sick and tired of staying at home... theres only the computer and the tv to keep me company. theres no one at home i can talk to. i have 2 brothers. but we have nv had a proper conversation for years... more than 5 years.. in fact, a normal day is one in which we nv speak a single word to each other. its because of how my parents brought us up and treated each of us that nurtured the hatred and distrust that we have for each other. my parents dont understand me at all too. i have nv speak to them abt my inner feelings cos all i will ever get is criticsms. not the comforting words that i desire so much. since young i hav always thought of leaving home. and pretending i have nv had a family. thats an irrational thought i know cos bloodlines is the only thing that u cannot cut. i even hoped that one day my parents would divorce so that i wont have to face every one of them everyday. sometimes i even hope my father would die when my anger went out of control. even tho i know he does care abt me but i can help myself from thinking this way. theres no one i can talk to about it cos theres no one i can trust. i dont need ppl to start thinking that i have a problematic family and needs counselling... i have lied to ppl abt things regarding my family so as to hide the real situation... recently though, i have a friend whom i thought might understand since he has a similar situation at home. he is a really nice guy and he has shared many of his problems with me. he can open up really freely to me and i feel comfortable sharing some things with him. i really hope that we can be close friends but theres like always something that separates the both of us. its really hard to describe how distant i feel towards him sometimes. he has since gone into ns but im really glad to noe that he treasures our friendship just like he treasures each of his other friendships... i have always been skeptical abt friendships bcos of past experiences that make me think that everlasting friendships are just dreams. i do not think that many of my friends really noticed or bothered about my existence. i feel like im insignificant in their lives. but for once, i want to try believing in friendships... |
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| 000001288 (seigirl) | 298 hugs (hug) | comment |
| I donno if i was brainwashed or i really like you. My friend always tell me stories abt really sweet girls who r really nice to their girlfriends. Esp with many many stories abt JECKS. I guess, tt made it worse.
I still like guys. But have not idea with wad's the feeling of loving someone. Love sux. HAHA |
| 000001287 (dead) | 319 hugs (hug) | comment |
| i hate my life i hate my life i hate my life i hate my life.. i hate my life~!
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| 000001286 (Apr) | 302 hugs (hug) | comment |
| I have my walls. Do you see this, and if you do, why aren't you trying to break them down? Are you really okay with superficiality? |
| 000001285 (nameless) | 302 hugs (hug) | comment |
|
A new school, a fresh start
I wondered how it would be like.
would it be boring? strict? fun?
didn't anticipate love at first sight.
As we prepared for games, to break the ice
sitting in a circle, she stood out
with her beauty, a great beauty
of charm, of confidence, of sunshine
as the facades fell away, people started
laughing, cheering, chatting
I could only notice her,her bubbly nature
complementing her beauty, what loveliness!
Still, I was wise; 'beauty is only skin deep'
so I took my mind off her, yet throughout the day
I could not take my eyes off her, stealing glimpses,
casting glances, looking out for her smile.
If beauty was measured in inches;
she was off the scale
If beauty was measured in grams; and worth its weight in gold
she would be the richest woman in the world
Its stupid to fall for someone
you've known for less than a day
but of what meaning does it have?
she would never fall for me.
That night, I received a message
It was from her! Great joy!
She was inquiring about a test I had taken.
How was it? She asked.
I know she asked out of curiosity and friendliness
haha,its even funny to think she would be interested in me
wishing thinking, interested in me?
Oh no, she would never be.
A few messages travelled on the airwaves that night.
Before I bid her good night
I climbed into my own bed, an hour later I was still awake
Infatuation! I tried to kick her out
She wouldn't budge. She stayed in my mind,
in my ears, my eyes.
It was more of a curse than a blessing.
There was no school on weekends, so she stayed for two more nights
She didn't message me furthur, I was longing for one
I longed to wish her a good morning
I longed to wish her good night
But she would think I was imposing, a pervert, a desperate maybe
To be on the safe side I wished her nothing
throughout the weekend I always felt
my heart skipping a beat, at the mere thought of her
oh yes, she sends shivers down my spine.
Tomorrow I shall go to school again
And I know that when she walks past me
My heart will skip a beat, again
and I will fall in love with her, again. |
| 000001284 (king) | 327 hugs (hug) | comment |
| thank you for giving me the motivation to work and fight!! Should you return, I hope you don't regret giving me a miss; after all, you barely have a glimpse of the REAL me ==> beyond you, beyond expections, above all!! best of best, top of top, king of kings!! |
| 000001283 (cc) | 315 hugs (hug) | comment |
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000001279 (c) | 8 hugs (hug)
my double edged boss just force me to resign. i wish his drink driving habit will be handle by the law. because of his decision, it has caused my whole family to suffer and i have to find a job within one month
> alot of my colleague ask me whether did i get a job and why i resign?
i discuss with my wife, and i sort of tell a big lie that i gotten a job to them, which in fact, i don't. "i resign because of better opportunity and i will go off end of the month, and will start work after CNY."
I think this is the way to save my face and reputation .Am i doing this wrong?? i need more hug |
| 000001282 (heartbroken) | 290 hugs (hug) | comment |
| my heart is broken |
| 000001281 | 328 hugs (hug) | comment |
| the urge to die is too strong to resist. |
| 000001280 (lovefool) | 353 hugs (hug) | comment |
| why do u hurt me? over and over again every minute of my life for the past 1 year.. i have given u everything and i still love u.. but why do u hurt me this way? i feel so stupid sitting here crying for u every night like a f**kin idiot.. oh my god can someone put some sense into me? u treat me like im ur slave like a worthless piece of S**t.. WHY must u do that? how can u be so heartless..
will this pain ever go away? |
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| 000001279 (c) | 331 hugs (hug) | comment |
| my double edged boss just force me to resign. i wish his drink driving habit will be handle by the law. because of his decision, it has caused my whole family to suffer and i have to find a job within one month. |
| 000001278 (lol) | 330 hugs (hug) | comment |
| lol |
| 000001277 (sorry for myself...) | 325 hugs (hug) | comment |
| i like this guy in this calss n i hv 2 see him everyday to past life i no i m craZ i bet he duzzn't even no my existence but i just liked him without even noing n now i'm head over heells 4 him ... help... m i going craz |
| 000001276 (s a d) | 324 hugs (hug) | comment |
| has anyone wonder what death is? why do we live just to die in the end? everything we achieved is gone the instant we die. so why strive? what is death? how does it feels like? |
| 000001275 (silver) | 351 hugs (hug) | comment |
| I have this strong urge to have sex with my office collegues.I think they are open to the idea too. |
| 000001274 (marcus tan wei wen) | 360 hugs (hug) | comment |
| i like to eat pangsai. is this normal????
i like the smell of pangsai also. I stick my head into the toilet bowl and smell it all day long. if u have similar experience, tell me about it at ma_r_cus@hotmail.com |
| 000001273 (etrtwrtw) | 319 hugs (hug) | comment |
| To 000001272: One simple word to describe you...'Bitch'. Another one...'Slut'!!! |
| 000001272 | 331 hugs (hug) | comment |
| 10 ways to describe you
extremely...
1)digusting (hygiene-wise)
2)ungentlemanly (only after u got me)
3)stingy (only with me, nobody else)
4)unreasonable (again. only with me)
5)sweet (when it's to ur advantage)
6)chavinist (all e time)
7)loving (on e bed)
8)non-possesive (when u wanna do what u want)
9)completely unsensitive (me & me only)
10)drama- mama
i know u're not good-looking. in fact, u r what others would call ugly. i'm not that great either, maybe average at most but not more. but i wouldn't change a thing even if i went for plastic surgery one day. i love u no matter how u or i look. But ur character.. it's no longer e same as before. either u've changed. or maybe u finally showed ur true colours. cos i'm now taken for granted by u to always be there no matter what. fact is, u're everything i hate in a guy.
how can a toothache hurt so badly that u can't walk straight & got to lie down? and if u're pressing something against it, isn't it gonna hurt more? moreover, most of my friends can't understand why everything u buy for me, i have to pay u back. if u don't want to buy it, just say it. u shouldn't be embarrassed in front of others cos that's e way u want it. u know i'm suffering definately. cos i've told u to ur face. but u don't care. u never did. i know u knew i was before i told u. but what i really wanna say is, i've changed so much for u. but this is gonna stop. until u change for me. i'll wait, but not for long. i made that mistake once. i won't make it again. e consequences of one big mistake is enough to last forever. i don't need another. |
| 000001271 (Too proud) | 343 hugs (hug) | comment |
| He's never said it, but deep down i noe he luvs me. His eyes betray it. I luv him too. But nothin will ever happen btwn us cos we're both too proud to admit it. Sigh. |
| 000001270 (not fake) | 309 hugs (hug) | comment |
| i may not be as pretty as she is, but at least i am real. |
| 000001269 (angrywoman) | 354 hugs (hug) | comment |
| He doesn't care about me. And i am so angry. Because try as I might, i just can't make him. |
| 000001268 (wanting) | 324 hugs (hug) | comment |
| I want you so bad, it hurts. |
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